Suihkussa
Hän hieroo
Silkinpehmeällä pesukintaalla
Sitä
Elämän mysteeriä
Mutta suudelmani
Eivät vieläkään ole ylittäneet
Hänen huuliaan
Eikä rakkaus
Hänen kainoja polviaa
Hanna, you are THE one, you are my One, we have rough times, we will have some others but one thing is sure, my love for you will never fail, it’s here, true and full. Happy Valentines day my dear finnish sweet angel.
Mina rakastan sinua.
This is an old reference to THIS old post, read your comment a this time, maybe now you’ll understand a bit more. I know you choose ignorance, I choose to love you whatever what’s happen since the beginning.
La première fois ou je t’ai vu,
J’avais l’impression de t’avoir toujours connu.
Je pense que lors de cette “première fois”,
J’étais déjà, inconsciemment, amoureux de toi.
Depuis ce fameux jour là,
Cette passion s’est installée en moi,
Et mon coeur t’a laissé toute la place,
Pour que ton amour y fasse“son palace”.
Je ne cesse de t’aimer depuis tout ce temps,
Et de penser à toi chaque jours à tout moments,
Ton amour m’est indispensable,
Et ta présence irremplaçable.
Comme je te le dis souvent,
Et je ne m’en lasse pas honnêtement,
Tu es la personne au monde qui m’est le plus cher,
Et c’est pour ça que je t’aimerai ma vie entière.
Today is our day, I love you a bit more today but still less than tomorrow. I know we had hard time and we will have some more in the future, but when I just close my eyes and look how you’re beautiful when you’re happy, I just know everything we live know will soon end and everything will just be fine. You have to be strong for you but for me and kids too, I know it’s easy to say but I know you’re stronger than, just because we all stand behind you.
I love you and I will always love you.
Aujourd’hui nous quittons Rovaniemi… Le coeur n’est pas à la joie, nous partons triste de quitter la famille avec de grosses larmes. C’est toujours des moments que nous redouttons et qui finissent toujours pas arriver.
Ce fut 3 semaines magiques, pure deconnexion avec la réalité, j’espère que l’attérissage dans la vie de tous les jours en France ne laissera pas trop de trace et se fera en douceur.
Hanna est très triste et plus nous allons dans le temps, plus je la comprend, parce que j’ai la chance d’avoir ma famille en France, mais je sais ce que c’est d’être dans un pays étranger, c’est pas ce qu’il y a de plus évident. Hanna est une femme formidable, elle est à la fois forte et sensensible, et porte notre famille, même dans les moments de doutes. C’est ma femme, et j’en suis plus que fiere.
Jenni & Samu : Thx for everything and beeing there, Jenni you know, my throat was a bit soar and I couldn’t speak very well to tell you I’ll miss you, even if don’t really have as much ‘discussion’ as I would like, you’re in my heart, in our heart and you and Samu are always welcome at home.
Tarja : This time I had time to enjoy Helsinki and fantastic birthday you made, it was very nice to see you and people around you, we really appreciate everything you’ve done for us, and you know you’re always welwome in our house when you want to enjoy your daughter, Tuukka and Taïka. Mme Lankila, you have a fantastic daughter and she really loves you and will miss you when we’ll be back tomorow in France. I’ll make everything to keep her happy with our little familly.
Sirkka & Olli : Big Big thanks for everything, I don’t know if we will do something as big as you have done everytime we come to thanks you back but It’s really appreciate and I will, we will really miss you, your warm heart house is a place where we all feel good and that’s propably the best holydays I’ve had. Kiitos Kiitos Kiitos ! I know I won’t be able to speak at the airport because of emotion so everything is written in there 
Mr Lankila, you have the most amazing daughter and I’m the lucky one she have choosen, even if it’s sometime a bit hard, I love her more than anything, and she’s my one. So I guess this is it… Now we have to leave this great country and I can tell you I will miss everything, include weird thing from Finland. I’m sure we will soon be back, and never forget our home is not very big but you can come when you want to visit us, you are always welcome.
Hanna : I go back with you, my treasure, and I understand hwo hard it is for you, I understand more and more because I feel a bit the same, I feel like I’m a part of your country and I really love your whole familly. Even if we had some ‘fights’ during this 3 weeks this was nothing compare the good time we had. I promise I will make everything to make you happy, you and our familly. Never forget the most important is we are all together and love each other, because we are one, we are strong ! I love you more than anything my dear finnish angel. <3
Hanna, I have a part of a ‘non metal’ song only for you…
I was lost in darkness
Ashamed and helpless
You came as a godess
And the world was bless
One and one is two
You’re my dream come true
Listen to the heart beat
Feel the hit
We are complete
Your lips on my lips
Your own fingertips
Burning with desire
I’m on fire
Tonights the night
True love is the light
Fears from the night
Feel the eternal flame of love
I love you more than anything, we are two but we are one.
Honey.
Remember always that I love you so so much and even if I am a bit difficult perso sometimes, it never changes. Like what we talked at weekend,nothing can come between us and nothing will. What we share is something so amazing and unique. Nothing can ruin that. Not even my crankybehavior sometimes. 
I’m so proud that I have such an amazing fiancée, future husband. I’m so proud that I’m our other half and you want to share your everything, your life with me. You’re a treasure, a real piece of gold. And I’m so lucky that you want to be with me. Like you’ve said to me many many times, we’re two but we’re one. And that makes me the happiest woman on this planet. You, your love, our bright future which is just around the corner waiting for us.
I love you so so much, don’t ever forget that. I’m yours and only yours, forever and I’m so happy to be. You’re the light of my life, you and kiddo are the sun and the moon of my life, you bring the light to dark, you are the best things which have happened to me.
Je t’aime, pusipusi halihali!
Kiddo: I miss you so much my cutie babyboy. You’re all the time in my mind, my thoughts and my prayers. I send again an angel to guard your sleep, never forget how much mom loves you. I’m always with you. I love you.
Our hearts are in flames. The fire of our love is burning so strongly that it cannot be described in words. There isn’t words which could describe love we’re feeling. It just is and exists. We just are. We. And our love.
How did a story like this began? How can we be so lucky that we found our soulmates, the other halves? Me, in Finland, 2000 km’s away from France and Stéphane. How did this all happen, how is it possible? Those are the questions that many people has asked from me the most.
The internet.
I could start our story by telling about a band called In Flames, how did they got together, which year was it, how old were they… But I think that’s not the most important thing to tell in our Love Story, even if In Flames is our favourite band… And thanks to them, we are here now.
I discovered In Flames with a little help of my friend, and after that I discovered a website called www.everdying.com. It’s not very hard to guess, who’s the administrator of that website? Archy, my Stéphane. I registered there 9th of July 2005. 10th of July we had our first very serious discussion. Well, not so serious, but still. It was the beginning to this amazing story. And it was the first discussion which leaded to many many many discussions. At that moment I didn’t realise that my life will change, everything will turn upside down and I will fall in love so deeply I couldn’t even dream about anything like that before. But it happened. It happened to us. This is the first contact we had.
Session Start (archy666@hotmail.com:Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä*): Sun Jul 10 11:26:10 2005
[11:26] Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä*: hello
[11:26] ::ArchY:: www.ArchY.net: hi
[11:26] Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä*: i took your address from everdying.com, hope you don’t mind?
[11:26] ::ArchY:: www.ArchY.net: of course no it’s on everdying to be used
[11:27] Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä*: i’m in a bit hurry right now, but i’ll be back later. i’m going to visit my parents at my hometown.
[11:28] ::ArchY:: www.ArchY.net: ok have a good day and maybe see you later !
[11:28] Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä*: have a good day too c ya.
Session Close (Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä*): Sun Jul 10 11:28:49 2005
Me, always in a hurry, always late from everywhere. 
I was back later. It felt like we’ve known eachother for many many years or something. Talking was easy, so easy, even though we use a foreign language to both of us. We understood eachother perfectly. Silent moments weren’t really silent ones, we didn’t need words to express ourselves.
We were 2000 km’s away from eachother, and we both felt this strong connection between us, this thunder which was between us. Everytime I looked at adorable Stéphane, I felt like I want to run to France and give him a big hug and kiss.
Webcam was very useful to us, later also microphones. Our first webcam session was 16th of July. I saw Cutie for the first time at that day. I didn’t have a webcam at that time, but soon after that I had my own.
16/07/2005 22:48:26 Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä* a accepté votre invitation à démarrer la webcam.
16/07/2005 22:48:42 Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä* ::ArchY:: it works
16/07/2005 22:48:43 ::ArchY:: Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä* it works
16/07/2005 22:49:03 Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä* ::ArchY:: no blush for me, please
16/07/2005 22:49:09 Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä* ::ArchY:: now i meant
16/07/2005 22:49:13 Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä* ::ArchY::
16/07/2005 22:49:26 ::ArchY:: Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä* i can’t become more red
16/07/2005 22:49:40 ::ArchY:: Hanski *Manaa Pahoja Henkiä* I have the skin burn by the sun already
Cutie was beeing so shy, blushing all the time if I said any compliments. And looked so cute while blushing. After that we saw eachother every day from our computer screens. We had our first phonecall at 13th of August and we spoke for 23 minutes. How do I remember that, I don’t know… I was so happy to hear his voice, his exotic accent. After that day, I heard his voice every day.
Thousands of written words, cyber kisses, hugs, phonecalls, sms’s later we decided to meet eachother in Helsinki, the capital of my country Finland. We started the first countdown, we counted days when we can really see eachother and hug and kiss eachother. 18th of August we started teh official countdown, “only” 22 days and we’ll finally meet.
It was funny feeling, to love someone, who I haven’t even meet in real life, only via webcam and internet. But feelings were and are so true and so strong… I couldn’t wait to see him standing in front of me and get to kiss him and hug him. Those 22 days of our countdown went so slowly…
And then finally came the day we both had waited so long. 7th of September I took a night train from Oulu to Helsinki and started to get ready for the big first meet.
Finally the day came. 9th of September 2005. The most magical and romantic day. I woke up at 6 in the morning and couldn’t sleep anymore… I was too excited, too nervous, too happy. Finally I can wake up to this day, to this most incredible feeling, I can finally see my love. We can finally see eachother. I watched the clock moving so slowly… But then… The moment was finally there.
I went to the airport, my hands and legs were shaking, I couldn’t stand still, I couldn’t drink anything. I was so so excited… I looked at the screen which said that my honeys plane was approaching the airport. Then landing… Then landed.
OU MAI KAAD OU MAI KAAD OU MAI KAAAAAAAAAD!!!!!!!
I saw people coming through the doors, speaking finnish, english, FRENCH… I stood there and stared at the door. Then it opened. And my honey was there.
Everything else around me disappeared. I didn’t see anything else, I couldn’t hear anything. I was just looking at my love, and he was looking at me. Finally, we were face to face, looking at eachother. I started to walk to him, he was walking to me. In the middle I was in his arms, he was in my arms. That hug. Our first hug… It felt like I never want to let go, like he would vanish if I now let go. The Kiss. First Kiss. Happy tears were running from my eyes. That kiss took my breath away. It was full of love and magic.
We spent the most amazing four days together. We enjoyed every second of it, I didn’t want to even think about that we have to say goodbye soon.
Those four days changed my life. I’ve never felt this kind of symbiotic feeling, this kind of connection. I thought that this kind of feelings exists only in movies or in fairy tales… But no. This is real life. This is my life, this is our life.
Like a fairy tale, every little girls fantasy.
I’m the princess of this true fairy tale, and he’s my prince.
He’s the one.
Now we just started our new life, we’ve chosen a path which we both walk together. There will be rocks on our path, but we’ll get through everything. Everything, we are together.
Our bright future is waiting for us. It has so many things to offer us. And we have all the time we need.
My one, my love, my honey, my husband,
I love you with all of my heart.
Forever.
You brought the light to my life.
Hanna.
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